not a canvas

Lately I have been interested in making art on things other than canvas's. For example make-up on my face. I Love the idea of interacting with the art and this is a great example of that. Its exciting to me to be able to interact with the art. Its a whole different field being apart of my artwork. Getting in touch with my body and making art according. What I like most about this new theory is unlike painting on a canvas and having no control after finishing the piece, I get the advantage of being apart of the display of the art work. This intrigues me. I will soon post art work that examplifies this.   

 

Making Movies

By far the last computer assignment has been the best one. I think I may have finally got intouch with my techie skills. I actually feel good about the completion of this assignment. Sigh, ahh its almost over the end of term is near, and I now see the light at the end. Three more days of stress-case lifestyle finishing up projects. Then.. THEN ITS OVER! Party hear i come.. and sleep. I've almost forgotten about what it feels like to have sleep, I mean proper sleep where you hit the pillow and wake up not tired! Its' so close I can feel.. 3 days I can make it!

Hiccups

I smiled today as I was watching a friend with hiccups because it hit me. Hiccups are one of our bodies few ways of controlling us. We are always telling our body to pick up our feet and move our hands and stand up, etc. Yet Hiccups are something our body does without our control. It's a fairly amazing concept. Here we are always controlling our body and then hiccups and sneezes come along and our body jumps in and reacts without the consent or the control of our mind. I love it, I love that know matter who you are or how hard you try to be in control of everything in your life, you simply cannot because your body sometimes knows better than you do. We are not machines no matter how hard you try to compare us with machines our bodies are far more complex than machines. For unlike machines our body natural reacts to certain things that you cannot prepare for or control.

Enjoy what you cannot control, embrace it and learn from it.

Snowflakes falling from a great big sky

Woah- lots a snows a falling this weekend!!! Crazy fun. My dog loves it. Today she was basically swimming in it in our backyard. This is quite alot of snow in my opinion and so soon. Wow, it sure is pretty out when it snows. The whole sky seems lighter and it never gets as dark at night when there is snow all around. So beautiful it also seems much quieter with all the snow. I'm guessing less people get out and about when they're car is stuck in the driveway and the road conditions are poor. Still I love the snow. I'm a little worried though, being November and all... Does more fall.. How much more? What 10 feet? This could be an issue... Well for now it's fun. It's also hard to get things done.. the colder it gets. The more I just want to stay in bed all curled up!        

seeing clearly

you know when your eyes can't see all that clear

they're open wide but you can't see whats near

you squint and glare at what lies before  

knowing that everything is chaotic and such 

you stare at what seems really far and out of touch 

you blink like a bird that is learning to fly 

relaxing those weary and tired eyes

some time passes by of resting your eyes

and in a short blink you try to retry 

glaring and staring and squinting away

maybe you're trying to hard to see anyway

maybe your head and heart are the bug 

thats caught in your eye and wont let you see all that much 

instead of living life seeing unclearly

why don't you focus on what's close and near you

don't waste your time teasing your eyes

hiding from truth and hiding from lies 

gallivanting your eyes all around town

stop this silliness and look all around

see and appreciate what stands right before you 

in clear and stillness enjoy all that surrounds you 

stop running and chasing from all you can't catch 

your eyes don't fool you

there's no looking back 

see everything as something 

and something as everything

look past the unclear and focus on more 

more that lies close to you

more your heart knows and loves

let your eyes guide you 

may you see all you must

but know you heart knows best 

clear eyes lead the way 

may they rest easy by night

and be clear by day

 

a fragrance fills the air, my heart searches, he is gone

5 precious days

108 hours of pure happiness

countless minutes of fleeing smiles

short sweet glances of honest love

my heart is heavy now

lost and alone

I yearn for just one more day 

one more hour

one more glance shared between us 

one more promising smile

one more minute

my heart craves

to be seen and heard

the way he sees and hears me

I crave to be touched and held

the way only he touches and holds me

till then 

I will wait

my drug addiction...

SHoes, SHHoes, SHOES!!!! Hey but if they are my only addiction in life I think I'm doing pretty good. So far in the last two months I've purchased four pairs. I usually average at least one new pair a month. But the past two months have been difficult because most of my shoes are all back home in B.C. so I was need of some new pairs here. You have got to admit shoes play a huge role in a person comfort and fashion. I sometimes watch peoples shoes as from noticing their shoes I can kind of tell a little bit about them. How they keep their shoes, what they wear them with, etc. With 4 brilliant seasons a year there's a great potential to own a vast amount of shoes for all occasions. Some shoes get to see sunlight more often than others, and some are just the perfect last piece to a special outfit for a special occasion. So my hunt continues to add to my collection of shoes. One day they will all have a spot in a large walk-in shoe closet. Each pair will have a perfect spot where they may rest in between use. 

words.. that trickle from my thoughts to my lips, from my lips to my hands, from my hands to your eyes, from your eyes to your thoughts..

a soft hello

a loud good-bye

a deep whisper 

an aweful cry

a chill right through me

a breeze afar

a murmur in the wind 

a long lost scar

a strangers stare 

a lost affair

a risen conflict

a lovers beware

An email I received a while back about Bus advertisements

PREGNANT LADY

A Lady about 8 months pregnant got on a bus.

She noticed the man opposite her was smiling at her.

She immediately moved to another seat. 

This time the smile turned into a grin, so she moved again.

The man seemed more amused.

When on the fourth move, the man burst out laughing, she complained to the driver and had the man arrested. 

The case came up in court. 

The judge asked the man (about 20 years old) what he had to say for himself. 

The man replied, Well your Honour, it was like this: When the lady got on the bus, I couldn't help but notice her condition. 

She sat under a sweets sign that said, 'The Double Mint Twins are Coming,' and I grinned.

Then she moved and sat under a sign that said 'Logan's Liniment will reduce the swelling,' and I had to smile. 

Then she placed herself under a deodorant sign that said, 'William's Big Stick Did the Trick,' and I could hardly contain myself.

BUT, your Honor, when she moved the fourth time and sat under a sign that said 'Goodyear Rubber could have prevented this Accident'...I just lost it. 

"CASE DISMISSED"

The awkward dance on the bus and the absence of personal space

Don't get me wrong there are some great things about taking the bus. For instance the interesting learning experience, because we all know very well that we would never choose to hang out with all of the different types of people that the bus does offer to us. The sounds of multiple conversations all so very different surrounding your silent thoughts. The bus simply offers a way in which we can come together to take public transit and be environmentally more aware of our earth and its need for less pollution. BUT.. here's the but.. It seems like there is a dance on the bus a dance that almost everyone partakes in. One in which you take 3 steps up and the some steps to the left.. its always this way to start. And when its busy you weave in amongst all the people you never dreamed you'd have to be so close to. This is the intimate part of the dance.. that is unless you trip and or fall on someone. And it seems there is always noise on the bus, I call this noise the music. We have the bus engine and quirky individual bus noises. If there are any windows open you have all the noises outside and the noises of traveling with the windows open. Then you have the footsteps of all the new people who step on to the bus to join the dance. You have watches ticking, you have people fidgeting, some people talking, you have people on cell-phone, and people listening to headphone.. some of these people even share there music with everyone on the bus,  I guess just incase others forgot to bring there music. How nice, although not everyone sees it this way. The you have that faint murmur of the bus drivers radio coming from the front of the bus, o and all the people pulling and pushing the "next stop" button. Really the bus offers so many different sounds and surroundings to enjoy. And if the people across from you just aren't as attractive as you'd like them to be, well you can always look up at all the wonderful signs and advertising the Bus offers. Do remember not do be fooled by all the advertisements though. And speaking of I am going to post a funny email I was sent a while back about ads on the bus as my next post. Anyways I hope I have just slightly inspired some of you to view the bus in a different way. A way in which you partake in. You bring something different on to the bus that the bus didn't have already. We all do. Anjoy the sounds and strange people, and the boring people, and the loud people, and the quiet people, and the obnoxious people, and the beautiful people, and the less beautiful people, the ones that might need a shower, and the ones that bring sweet smells on to the bus, enjoy it all because "this to shall pass"      

and there goes my weekend...

Thursday, it all started thursday. I went out for a run and i brought my dog with me (this i will not do again). And I guess I was running with the lease a little too long cause my dog ran in front of me very quickly and i tried to jump to the side so i wouldn't run over her and i fell. I twisted my ankle and therefor collapsed. So I limped home (luckily I was fairly close to the house) then I iced and elevated my ankle the rest of the day. The I woke up Friday and it was larger than it was thursday.. eckk. so I Iced and elevated all day again... and finally I woke up today Saturday morning, after a nice 12 hour sleep and the swelling went down! hurray. So I managed to moved around the house a small amount today but still have not ventured beyond the house since thursday :( Tomorrow I hope. Tomorrow will have to be the day. Today I was able to have a shower and put a little weight on it. So tomorrow I'm hoping I will be able to conduct a fairly normal sunday minus the limping around :S ugh what a drag. I guess that's just part of life you dont get the up's unless you get the down's. Well down's away with swelling, fingers crossed. On the contrary I caught up with my sleep and rest this weekend.. although I never imagined I'd catch up on my sleep and rest with my left foot elevated for days. At first It sorta looked like a round floor hockey or street hockey ball was trapped inside my left ankle. Now it just looks like an old lady ankle or a kanckle. Well thats all I got for now. This thing better heal soon. I can't sit still very well and well these past couple days have been a struggle to just rest up and not move. I'm a go-go-go person! Can't wait to get back to it.

OMG, Wash your hands

Okay people, this is disgusting! seriously there are sooooo many germs out there... And you people who don't wash your hands after using the wash room go around spreading even more germs everywhere. DISGUSTING. I used a public wash room earlier this morning and another girl was in the washroom also. She clearly went pee, unless she poured another unknown substance down into the toilet that sounded like peeing and then she just walked out! Ya, you heard me just walked out. Look even if your clean when you use a washroom you touch the door when entering the washroom and then you touch the stall door and then you usually touch the flush (unless its automatic.. which i admit i love) then you touch the handle of the stall door again WHICH BY THE WAY OTHER PEOPLE TOUCH ALL THESE PLACES TOO.. and even though you may be a clean person you are not anymore.. so its simple just wash your hands. Really we should probably wash our hands 3-4 times a day at least. You eat with your hands sometimes right? You probably occasionally take public transit and open doors touching the handles also.. hmm so why don't you just go around liking the ground and people's faces for that matter if what you really want is to inhale germs everywhere. I'd just like to add I'm also into strengthening the immune system.. but naturally not in any way excessively. Well peps thats all my ranting for the day about germs and dirty people forgetting to wash there hands. I love you all, just cleaner!   

I got a little more Juice on the... Jarrett Shaw

He told he is closest with his mom, but unfortunately she lives out in Ontario. He is currently living with his godparents here in Halifax, because he didn't enjoy living in Ontario. He moved there for a year with his Family in grade 9 but didn't enjoy it and came back to Halifax the following year. Where he has since been living with his kind and generous godparents. Gotta love family seems there always there for you in the long run. One of his favorite past times growing up was playing with action figures. I think this is the boy equivalent for barbies, right? He has one sibling a younger sister that is in High School. I asked him why he wanted to be a film director, what was it that really drives him to want to become a film director.. . HE SAID "The thing that drives me... is the fact that I get to show people MY personal vision with the movies. It's a good way to express me ideas." 

So Jarrett what's one thing in your bedroom you couldn't live without? 

umm any ideas guys... this is defiantly a guy answer i got from him! 

HE SAID "haha the one thing in my bedroom I couldn't live without would be my playstation 3 and my tv."

first off Jarrett thats two things.. getting greedy on me! and clearly you dont have any sentimental items in your room or you do and they just aren't sentimental to you :( 

I asked him for a motto or saying he lived by and HE SAID "your dreams only go as far as you take them, so don't stop dream"

And last but defiantly not least I asked him What characteristic do you most dislike in other people? by the way I completely agree with answer  

....AND HE SAID.....

"The one characteristic I really dislike in people, is settling for less and not achieving as much as they are capable of. Basically people who have no self-confidence" 

*might I add he believes that everyone is born with self-confidence but the thinks the media shuts people down because they think they can't be what they see on t.v. or people criticizing one another and negative thoughts implied towards one another. 

Wow thats a loaded answer and question to end it on. But it's a great on to get people thinking.. why do we call it out of our reach??? It's only out of your reach if your not reaching for it!!! 

   

Latest In-class assignment

Getting to know Jarrett (that's with two t's) a little better

His full name is Jarrett Shaw he is working to become a famous film director. He was born in Halifax on March 17, 1988. Which happens to be St. Patrick's Day.. I wonder if he came out green? He plans on finishing his degree at NSCAD with a major in Film. He loves seafood, everything but Salmon. I'm learning how can you not like seafood and life in Halifax. He prefers a good Lobster. His Favorite animal is a toss-up between monkeys and dogs. His favorite Artist in Kanye West "He is a genius" quoted by the Jarrett Shaw himself. He is currently enjoying one of his newest songs by Kayne West called Heartless. Next year Jarrett plans on entering The Atlantic Film Festival. He also plans on winning something too! Good-luck, not that it sounds like you need any. His fav movie would be Memento or Pirates. I have to say I haven't seen Pirates, but Memento is an awesome movie I totally agree with him. Great screenplay, well directed movie. He hopes to travel the world someday hopefully as a famous film director. He relishes new clothes and nice things. He said he's very materialistic, cause he is totally into Fashion. Jarrett says he doesn't judge many things before he tries them out himself. He told me he is also a very out-going yet humble person.   WELL FOLKS THATS ALL THE JUICE I GOT ON THE GUY FOR NOW! I'll try and pull some more info from him.. soon to come! 

In the meantime hit up his fav song and see if you have anything in common with him in the meantime.. KaYNe WEst "Heartless"

Stuffed and still thankful

It's only fitting that I write about thanksgiving and all. So I realized this year I just never seem to be near my family at this time of year, and if I recall correctly it's been at least 3 or 4 years since i had a thanksgiving dinner with them. I'm always in another city or another province or even sometimes another state. Yet I seem to always be invited to another family's thanksgiving. So this year I am thankful for and to all people who are like the families I have encountered in being so welcoming and generous. I think last year I was invited to 3 family dinners all on different days with different families (none mine, or should I say none by blood) I guess family is what you make of it. I have been so blessed to meet such gracious people in my so-far--lifetime. So today I am stuffed, stuffed with love and great company and some turkey. We are so lucky to be able to connect with people and enjoy a meal together. This is such a small thing but I think sometimes (I know I do) we forget how lucky we are to be able to afford to cook and prepare and enjoy a meal together. Not all people all over the world have this luxury. So I will try to be thankful more often, not just once a year because Halmark tells me I should. Giving thanks is all about personal awareness. To be aware of how much we have and how much we need and how much we take for granite and how much we are thankful. So thankful I am today and thankful I will be tomorrow. 

Stock Free Images

Hey here are some Stock Free Photography site that I thought where pretty good.. www.freephotosbank.com and www.photoshotsupport.com/resources/stock-photos.html If you have some time check them out. Theres a taste of some of the abstract images I found off of freephotobank website. 

Something I wrote a while back..."When Is too much baggage?"

I've been lugging around my past

even though only half of it was a blast

some memories good, some bad

some thoughts good, some sad

my heart is slowly feeling very heavy

bags; I'm not sure if i've got one to many

can't remember the last time i counted them

obviously an overflowing amount of them

to heavy to lift up to throw-out

i pile, trying forget about my internal doubt

one day a kind heart offers me a hand

i figure 4 hands is better than 2

and slowly my pile become few

my heart is feeling stronger each day

the pain seems to have been lifted away

all it took was a nice person to offer

now my heart feels so much softer

the burden has been lifted away 

my body has been relieved of all pain 

generous and willing, i will be 

the next time i see some else in need

 

Goodbye Flip-Flops

Its that wonderful yet sad time of year. The leaves begin to fall and there is moistness in the air. This is the end of flip-flop season as the sunny days are few so are the days of wearing flip-flops. My feet scream at me often if I've worn flip-flops all day and it's nearing dark. When the air gets colder and therefor my feet do also. They call out for protection and my flip-flop offer little. This war is almost over. Soon my feet will win. Boots are less comfortable but my feet cherish their protection. Protection is what they soon shall get for months on end of chilled damp weather. Goodbye Flip-flops.

Music to me

Music to me is anything I hear and enjoy. A familiar sweet sound to my ear. A gentle lull or hush or the natural noises around me. One day I was on the ferry heading between Vancouver and Vancouver Island. I often took this route as I was studying Fine Arts in Victoria for two years. I enjoyed being outside on the ferry breathing the fresh air. This one day in particular It was quiet around me and I could hear a brilliant array of noises. I searched all around me to find what it was I was hearing. Low and behold it was right before my eyes. A small yet beautiful shiny piece of tin foil. Scrapping across the rough gravel/cement like floor beneath my feet. The wind was humming and blowing the tin foil around. The collection of noises that filled my ears made music. This was enlightening as sometimes I am so focused on what is out of my reach I forgot about what is right in front of me. It was only a short moment. Yet it was a moment of reflection, of realization. A standard English dictionary won't define my life and tell me what music is. Music to me will always be sounds my ears embrace. 

Slippers

O how my love extends for slippers. Other than natural sources (Sand, Water, Land/Grass, ect.) slippers are what my feet crave to curl into. The warm clean feeling of slippers. The idea of rarely touching dirty floor all winter excites me. The soft surroundings of slippers that invite me and always with the best intent. When it's cold and rainy and I'm walking home with damp soar feet I walk with happiness knowing that my slippers await my arrival. 

Can we as society be un-influenced my media?

Some Question... I'd love to here how other people think about this issue

Are we do surrounded by media that it is impossible to be influenced by it?

Or If we are aware of it's impact are we more or less influenced by it?

Does media have a direct affect on your or an indirect affect?

When are we not affected by media? Is it possible to be not affected by media, ever?

Why does media have such a strong impact on our general society? 

Are we driven by drama and headlines?

Can we use media in our art to affect others? By doing so are we selling ourselves out? Are we then being used by media rather than us using media?

So Many things to Remember

Okay, If I lost my planner. Its clear I would go insane. The other day I thought I did and I thought my life was over, then I found it. No I'm not dramatic. I know what your thinking... Stop thinking. Why do we think anyway. p.s. these days I barely have time to think. All I have time to do is complete assignments, go to class, try to pay attention, and hopefully learn! Then wait a sec If I plan my whole life out am I just living to plan? Am I just planning on planning? Am I letting anything naturally have an affect on me or am I so caught up in routine I'm lost in reality? O am I just over thinking right now???

Too many Timmt Ho's not enough Starbucks in N.S.

Not much to say about this... I just don't understand why there are so few Starbucks in Halifax and yet so many Tim Hortons. Tim Hortons doesn't make specialty drinks and serve fresh fruit, yoguart, and other healthy choices. I feel like I'm going through a starbucks withdrawl since having moved here from Vancouver/Victoria B.C. and was so used to my daily convenient stop at a Starbucks.  To top it all off I attempted to order at a Tim Hortons the other day and even though they don't offer anything healthy I tried to order a toasted bagel. This was in the early afternoon and they told me they where all out of bagels.. So I asked for a sandwich and they replied "We're sorry we are all out of bread." So I kindly asked "What do you have?" they answered; "Just donuts." Sorry no thanks.. Not only do I not have my starbucks here surrounding every street corner.. but the the tim hortons here don't have anything even moderatly healthy to order!!!!!